What I watched growing up.

Movies, articles and even fairytales have told how us as kids watching our parent’s relationship affects how we would like ours to be in the future. So when you’re off searching for the parts you like and prefer not to live with, how far off the checklist does it get before love blinds it all? Or do you think love will conquer it all and there comes unity? Or maybe you’re the one who thinks you’re practical and push your perception of the unrainbow of a marriage?

I grew up with my parents showing affection. Not kisses, but spending time together, the real kind. It starts off at breakfast, then it leads to an evening walk, gardening together, occasionally afternoon naps and the sitting through the moonlight. There are times they even took showers together and us as kids sneak the keys and barge into the room because we thought it was a mission to. There really is no better reason. I guess that’s the start of my checklist.

Some time ago, I realised, there is another side, my partner’s side, how was the relationship when he was growing up? I can only tell what I see today. To me, they seem like they live in a same space but in a separate world, individually independent. Perhaps it works for them.

And now I’m at my story, there are the habits that I prefer to avoid or the telltale signs of “that’s what a marriage is in 20 years”. I want the fairytales, I want the love stories, I’m a romantic, I grew up with mountains of storybooks and classic Disney cartoons. Maybe it will all end someday. Like how the articles and movies are these days, some where down the road it fizzles out, the spite gets ugly and nasty, and love no longer triumphs above it all. If one day it does lead to that, I believe I’ll go again. Because that was what I watched growing up.


#theWparty – Part 2

Bridezilla. I have painted the picture of my dream wedding a long time ago. Now it’s time to realise it.

Reality: My husband is surprisingly open to what favours me and seem to share the sentiments of a wedding. However, the chinese part of our family doesn’t. Of course, the actual reality check.


I like my wedding small, those who know us as a couple, sprinkle a little bit of those who you grew up with along the way. Basically those who you actually have a picture with. Somewhere down the line there’s the grandma’s cousin or your parent’s cousins’ cousins’ aunt. Save them for a 60th birthday party maybe?


Nature. That’s hard to come by in Malaysia. Recreating it comes with a hefty price tag. Maybe modern? That’s tough to swallow for the older crowd. Hotels are great and grand, but terribly formal for a couple like us. If you know us, we rather pull a seat up at your table and tell a joke. Chinese restaurants, let’s not go there.


Those yellow rice lights you get at Christmas? Lots and loads of it. Flowers, fresh flowers all around. I’m calling it yellow, grey & nature.


How to make a wedding reception fun? I don’t want to host a wedding that when it hits the final dessert, guests start to leave the room and the newlyweds find themselves rushing to thank and say goodbye. Hey, hey, now, isn’t that rude? So we want to make our reception a party. A true party. Maybe with live stations for food so that people are always up and about. A karaoke corner for the tipsy and the bold. Setting off lanterns into the sky with kids playing with sparklers. And those performances from our friends (after attending my best friend’s wedding, it was a true gem to see people you love come together to do something for you as a couple. It’s real personal).


Photographer, there are a few we really adore. Videographer, they are tough to find! Or is it just me?

Invitation Cards:

Urm… I did complete the Thailand one, does that count?

Destination Wedding

Wedding favours:


Wedding dress & Tux:

Yeah, we’ve looked and looked, alright it was just one weekend, no luck just yet!

4 months to wedding in Thailand. 6 months to Malaysia’s. We need that whip!


I might have written about soul mates before. But here’s a ringing quote from Friends,

I don’t think you and I were destined to end up together, I think that we fell in love and work hard in our relationship. Some days, we work really hard.

Still I would like to believe that it was meant to happen. A hint of fate. But hell, sometimes we work on it like 4 hours straight in a pair of 5 inch stilettos.

But damn, it is worth every step.

i love titties

I solemnly swear I am up to no good. I am a bad bad girl who will fall down all the time for no reason because karma is sitting on my shoulder and scratching my nose.

I solemnly swear to wear baby mittens on my hands when I sleep because I have no self control. Lalalallala


You are constant. I realise that now.

“I bet you didn’t know that I am terrified of the dark, and every time I think of you, I smile. I bet you don’t know that I hate thunderstorms but love dancing in the rain. Or how much I laugh with my friends & how much I truly enjoy being happy. I bet you don’t know how many tears I’ve cried just for you, or how much I doubt myself every day. I bet you dont know how ticklish I am or how I can’t make decisions. & how it drives me crazy when you look into my eyes. I bet you didn’t know that I would do anything to be with you. But mostly I bet you didn’t know how much I love you.”

– Grey’s Anatomy.


Also found this:

Dear Miss Khoo,

this is to inform you that you are the biggest drama queen that miss vatvani knows and all the skills that she has learned she has acquired from You. Therefore, she kindly requests you to stop noticing the drama because people only notice their qualities in other people meaning you notice drama because you are drama *evilgrin*  Miss vatvani loves you the way you are and also feels that asking that dum dum question is valid question. Miss vatvani KNOWS you think its a valid question too.

Therefore, she kindly requests you to stop saying drama unless REALLY drama.

With love,
miss vatvani